I’ve been contemplating a big decision for awhile now. I’m enjoying this running journey I’ve been on the past two years but I’ve hit a crossroads. I can keep doing what I’m doing. I struggle through and finish my races but I’m not getting any better. Sure, I have fun. Sure, I have the same finisher medals as everyone else. But my improvement has stagnated. And I wasn’t sure how to feel about it.
But the more I contemplated, I know how I feel about it. It’s not ok.
See, I want to run for enjoyment. For health. For friendship and camaraderie. I’m not a competitive person by nature. But that doesn’t mean I don’t want to push myself and jump out of my comfort zone. To see what I’m capable of.
It’s time to make a change.
So yesterday, I made a big one. I signed up for a running coach. Lee Shaw is an amazingly gifted runner who has started his Next Level Coaching. He offers personalized training plans and a lot of tough love. He’s a brilliant runner and, just as importantly to me, a really good person. I trust him. He says I’m capable of improvement with hard work, so I’m going to improve with hard work.
Don’t get me wrong, this is definitely NOT going to be warm and fuzzy. Lee is, ummm, brutal. He doesn’t mince words. He pushes and pushes and pushes. He’s not going to give me a pat on the back, or empathy, or anything like that. But he will help me be better. So I’m in.
I should also note at the end of the day, the coaching alone isn’t going to get this done. Lee can be the best coach in the world but I’m not going to get better unless I buy into the process. I need to clean up some areas of my life. I need to plan. I need to drop some weight, get a more consistent training schedule and find a way to get 8 hours of sleep each night. I’m giving myself from now until the weekend to come up with a schedule that will fit around my ridiculous job, my family obligations and my music. Any tips on organizing my life would be appreciated. I need quick healthy meal ideas. I need help on how to fit runs into 12 hour work days (I’ll be running 4-5 days per week instead of my 2-3 right now). I need ideas of how to work on my core and incorporate weight training into my routine.
I’m terrified but excited. Stepping out of my comfort zone has been the central theme in my life since starting this adventure so why change now?