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I spent some time feeling sorry for myself today. And it sucked. But then I thought about it and realized I felt sorry for myself based on other people’s perceptions of me. What is that all about?

First, I decided to feel a little self-pity because I’m not a stay at home mom. Heaven knows I would like to be, but that’s just not in the cards for me. I’m a career woman. My son started going to daycare when he was 8 weeks old. And apparently some people believe that this isn’t healthy for him to be outside the home for 40 hours per week. Ouch.

Second, I decided to feel a little self-pity because I’m a slow runner. Because apparently others feel that way. Have you ever received a pseudo-sympathetic reaction to something that is a huge accomplishment for you? I have, and it sucks.

But here’s the thing: I am choosing to let other people’s opinions hold dominion over me. And that’s lame. Why do I care what they think?

My son is amazing. He is smart, funny, kind, and so incredibly sweet. He thrives in whatever environment he’s in and while I don’t spend every waking moment with him, I go out of my way to make sure the time I do spend with him counts. Because I work we’re able to provide him with experiences and adventures we would never give him otherwise.

I may not be a fast runner but I’ll be damned if that matters. A mile is a mile no matter what speed you run it. I’m out there doing things I never would’ve dreamed possible. I’ve run 5 half marathons in the last 6 months. Why should I feel bad about that?

I never saw a wild thing
sorry for itself.
A small bird will drop frozen dead from a bough
without ever having felt sorry for itself.
– DH Lawrence

There’s no time for self-pity.

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3 responses »

  1. You say…My son is amazing. He is smart, funny, kind, and so incredibly sweet. He thrives in whatever environment he’s in…..I say…..he is just like his momma!!!!!
    And if you want to run fast….run next to me…….I am slower than a turtle in peanut butter…..true story….but you know that!!
    ❤ ❤ ❤

  2. I love this Laura! Sometimes we are so hard on ourselves for no reason other than what stupid people think. And normally, we dot even like those people, so why do we care what they think? Lol Keep writing…love your blog!

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