Having or showing a feeling of vague or regretful longing.
pensive – thoughtful – longing – wishful – sad
Remember when you were a kid and you would stare out the window of your classroom all morning, just longing for the recess bell so you could go outside and run and jump and play and live? That’s where I am right now.
I am on Day 9 of complete rest due to a relapse of pneumonia. Day 9! Nine days of sitting inside during my morning break and lunch break. Missing out on the last little bit of cool weather that will grace us here in Florida until at least October. Missing the gorgeous sunsets, the smell of fresh-cut grass, the sunshine on my face and the wonderful feeling I get at the end of a workout. This respite has taught me something important: I need exercise. It’s essential not only to my physical health, but also my mental well-being.
And to think a year ago I was just trying to force myself to run for 20 minutes at a time without quitting. And I hated every single step! Exercise was a nuisance and a waste of my important time. I look back at myself with pity. I had no idea what I was missing out on.
Running makes me a better person. A happier person. A more content person. And I realize now that the “victory” in all of this won’t be from any PR or distance completed or milestone achieved. It is simply the fact that I am a better version of myself now. And I’m grateful for that.
Like a caged bird, I know this environment is unnatural for me. I can’t wait to get back outside where I belong.